here, now

I'm having surgery today. Nothing too serious, just looking for some answers. I've been thinking a lot about patience, how I seem to have very little and it all comes down to urgency by fear. I regret looking back in my life at times of trial to remember the doubt I had. If anything, my life is a testament that God is here, now. God was always here, even when I forgot it, ignored it, and refused it.

God is here.