some days

Some days

I don't like how I look.

(*note, I did not say HATE)

It's not that I think I look ugly or fat or anything.

Sometimes I just don't feel like I look like I feel.

does that make sense?

Some days I don't think I look like myself.

I don't look "Claire".

I look like someone trying to be me.

and doing a poor job of it.

even the combination of makeup, hairspray, and the perfectly coordinated outfit cannot remedy it.

Then some days I feel like I look just like I feel I should look.

without any work.

and I don't wear mascara.

and my bangs fall perfectly on my face.

and I feel "real" and "fresh".

like the way God made me.

two kinds of days.

two kinds of looks.

Today, unfortunately, is the former.