I don't like how I look.
(*note, I did not say HATE)
It's not that I think I look ugly or fat or anything.
Sometimes I just don't feel like I look like I feel.
does that make sense?
Some days I don't think I look like myself.
I don't look "Claire".
I look like someone trying to be me.
and doing a poor job of it.
even the combination of makeup, hairspray, and the perfectly coordinated outfit cannot remedy it.
Then some days I feel like I look just like I feel I should look.
without any work.
and I don't wear mascara.
and my bangs fall perfectly on my face.
and I feel "real" and "fresh".
like the way God made me.
two kinds of days.
two kinds of looks.
Today, unfortunately, is the former.